Monday 12 May 2008

Hesitation

Been out on the job market today window shopping. TBH I shouldn't be window shopping. I should BE shopping. Quite a few tasty ones in Germany, Malta and Malaysia. But resistance to change kicks in. This happens all the time in all sorts of situations. Be it parting with cash in a shop, making a choice in a RPG or replacing suspect hardware. I should apply for them and see where they take me. But there is always the fear of what if I get no replies? Or what if they want me now but I can't cos of the course? Or what if I leave my current job and the contact bombs tomorrow? Makin that first step is always the hardest. Just gotta do what I gotta do. Sigh, I can be such a lil bitch like this at times, I hate it.

Like jumpin out of a plane. Might seem scary & un-natural. But it could be fun, never know if you don't try.

Friday 9 May 2008

Content

Back "home" now. Well home always is where ever I hang my hat. Was back at mums for about a week and she hasn't changed. Still doesn't listen and out to control everything. So yeah throughly annoying.

Already had my 1st week of the A320 course. Never been on such a laid back course! B4 the class started the lecturer stated the ground rules. Decide whenever you want to come in to start the class. Decide whenever you have had enough for the day n head home. Exams will never be on mondays cos it's annoying to worry bout exams over the weekend. Exams will also never be on a friday because on friday you'll probably want to head home before lunch. If you want to have a day off or not come in, then go ahead! OMG how lax is this course. Start when you want, finish when you want, come in when you want, study what you want. As long as you pass the exams its all good.

Certainly for me and "B" its good. Because we have already done 2 other airbus courses. And end of the day airbus planes are all pretty much the same. But for the other 3 guys on the course it could be hard as its all new to them and very little guidance is given. Which is now what confuses me on their behavior. If I was new to airbus planes and on this course and 2 guys there had worked those planes b4 I would be constantly buggin them for advice and instruction. but from those guys nothing. All you ever hear from all 3 of them is, how so and so is useless at work, how this other guy is an arsehole, and that other bloke is stupid, etc etc. Everything out of their mouths is work related and 95% of the time negative. If its not how crap their co-workers are its how shit their job is, how badly run the company is or how they should have never become an aircraft engineer. Then they start to whinge about how boring this course is and how they rather be back at work... Hang on weren't they bitchin bout how crap work was just a few sec ago??? Now they rather be at work?!? Wat da hell... Some people are never happy.

For me couldn't be happier, its 32 degrees in the desert now and everyone is workin their sweaty arses off but I'm here in the 21 degree warm British summer sun. Staying at a beautiful converted farmhourse, sippin Pimms in the garden and looking out over the rolling Leicestershire country side. Attending a laid back, in your own time course, at the end of which would make me employable to no end. YAY!

Only regret is, had I known the course would be like this I would have taken wifey here with me rather than ship her back home to spend time with her family & friends. Especially since the place I am staying at has given me a huge double bedroom with ensuite. Usual price of US$128 per night reduced for me to just US$46! She would love it. Lovely country side, lots of cute doggies & other assorted wildlife. WAH:( missin her so.