Sunday 22 March 2009

Genki

Been off the blog due to some freak injury. Well its hard to class as injury as I never really did anything. Just 1 day my back started hurting for no reason, did nothing to strain it or anything such like. And as the days passed it just got worse. Till around a week had passed and I felt it was pain to the point I should really seek help.

The help I sought will give many the "well you were asking for it" stance. I went to a Chinese massage place that specialised in back problems, as highly recommended by a friend. In "skip to the end" style I am now reasonably back pain free so the massage guys did their job. But try to tell me this after the massage and I would have slapped you, had I not been in such excruciating pain. Pain so bad it took me 5 mins to wear a pair of sandals and so bad I nearly passed out while trying to wear my shorts. That same agony stretched thru 3 days. Leaving me unable to go to work due to it. Most of my 3 days were spent on my back. Those that weren't spent on my back involved me sitting, shifting constantly due to the ever present pain or shuffling about like the hunchback of Notre Dame, all done whilst having a very foul mood.

During all this time I had to be constantly aided for every task, from having a meal to taking a dump. And even at times getting up and walking. Hell even needed help to pick stuff up if I dropped it on the floor. Just made me feel this must be what its like to be really old... or disabled. Constant pain and frustration. It just destroyed anything I used to enjoy doing, reading a book, watching TV, playing my XBOX, cooking, surfing the net, blogging, etc. All due to the overbearing pain and general frustration I barely did any of during my time off work. Just lay on my back drifiting in and out of conciousness was how most days were spent.

All of it did have an over arcing lesson for me thou. To appreciate what health I have and to make the most of it.

Saturday 14 March 2009

Pick up required

Just finished 2 weeks of night shift. Hence the lack of blog posts thus far. Way too shattered to do much save sleep. Too shattered to even eat. Just a bowl of instant noodles for dinner and a sandwich for a mid night snack. Guess all this has affected my mood some what too. Even lost enthusiasm for playing on my XBOX.

Plus the creeping reality that I might not be able to make it back to the UK this year is a lil disheartening. But still where there is a will. Just need something to kick start the optimism. Fingers crossed for some good news soon. Of the goals and reasons I came here in the first place, not a single one has been fully realised yet. Need something to show myself that coming here wasn't a total waste of my time.